sleepless hollow

Direction..... donno what it means...is this world supposed to have one...when life moves on aided by the wind....newness becomes the key ...self professed ignorance...the result....deviations rule....rather ruled...i just cant understand the real meaning of structure or direction....long been alien 2 the normal world....an entry into it seems highly improbable...we shape our own destiny..huh whats destiny...hell with destiny...but.. the end result....a journey back to the vortex of existence...it just doesnt leave me....sometimes i wish i were that single atom that escapes the power of the vortex..but the world isnt inviting either.... so the journey has to continue.... till i reach.... no no..i donno...no structure.. no pain...no desires.... no pain...no belongings .. no pain....what is happiness then...there cant be a day without night.....ya as confused as ever....